So if you’re on this page you’ve probably read my list of goals and wanted to know more. If not, your reading order is pure chaos and I’m not upset about it (lol).
- Have at least one piece of my art in a Gallery
- When I was little every year for Christmas, my Mamaw and Papaw would get me at least on gift that had something to do with developing a new skill. Most were creativity based and some were educational but the ones I loved the most were the ones that allowed my creativity to flourish. I used to watch Bob Ross with my papaw on Sundays as well. So one year, I got an art set. It was the one that I know a lot of us got. It had a wooden box with a silver metal latch. It had oil pastels, markers with white caps that dried out crazy fast, and water color paints. I used to sit and try to make Bob Ross paintings after watching an episode. From then on, I received gifts like that each year including oil paints, sketch books, acrylic paints, charcoal , sewing machine, jewelry making supplies, and so many more. I can never be thankful enough to them for supporting all of my creative interests. I joke all the time about how they are the reason I’m a little good at everything, but not an expert in anything. Even now, when I pick up a paintbrush it makes me think about me telling my Papaw that one day I was going to be a famous artist with a TV show myself (I had big goals as a 7 year old). And although that is not my goal anymore, I still want my art showcase somewhere that I can take my Papaw to since my Mamaw has since passed and show him that I did it and I made a public display of my creativity and the passion that he helped ignite.
- Sell a piece of my art to someone who is not a family member.
- Keeping up with the art theme, this goal is important to me because liking something enough to put money down for it is such a big decision. Even if it’s a small price, it’s a privilege to have the money to splurge on things like art pieces so being able to have one of my pieces hanging up in someone’s home that didn’t feel obligated to buy it because they are blood is a huge win in my opinion. That means someone saw enough beauty in the art I created to not only hang it on their wall but spend their hard earned cash. Often when I got to spend money I think about how many hours of work it took to get me to that amount of money. So in my head even if it’s just $20 for an art piece, the person paying gave me part of their limited time on earth for something I created and that’s worth so much more to me than any monetary value.
- Skydiving
- I know, I know. It’s an activity that a lot of people put on their bucket lists or goals but I love taking risks. I’m also terrified of heights ironically. I just think that this would be the ultimate form of me staring fear in the face and not backing down, you know?
- Turning my home into the Fairytale Home of my dreams. Room by Room.
- I’ve always had a love for interior design and the way it makes a home feel. I’ve always thought it was cool walking into someone’s house and seeing their personality shine with the things they have on their walls or paint colors they’ve picked out. It can create an entirely different feeling and emotions. For me personally, I have always been a book lover. I use them as an escape and have ever since I was able to read. Even before then my mom used to read me bedtime stories. Although, the content of the books has matured, some of my absolute favorite books are fairytales with magic and universes of a different reality in ours that I can get lost in. And call me crazy but I want that feeling every day! So I’ve started doing small things to our 1940s house when I can. Each room has a vision and although it’s been a slow process, it’s getting to where I want it but I want it finished soon and now is the perfect time since I’m accomplishing goals and stuff. Yay me!
- Having 200 views on this website.
- Listen, I started this website because I know there are other people who are going through the same shit and have no idea what to do about it. I just think that even getting 200 people to view this website would be the absolute coolest thing. Or maybe just a few people who continuously come back. Either way it would be pretty cool.
- Posting at least 2 pictures of myself on social media per month.
- Without getting too deep, I’ve always had self esteem issues. I have gotten better throughout the years, especially in person but there is still a disconnect between myself in reality versus my online presence. I want to be confident in all aspects of life and social media is a huge part of all of our daily lives. I want to feel comfortable existing even if it’s just through some random selfies on Insta or wherever. I want to teach myself that I deserve to take up space just as much as the next person.
- Test out 2 new business opportunities.
- You can blame my dad for this one. I mean that in a totally good way. My dad and I are dreamers and share all of our business endeavor ideas with each other. From wedding venues to store fronts to family businesses, we’ve thought a lot about wanting to take a leap on something. But we haven’t. Why? You guessed it…. FEAR OF FAILURE. See I’m not the only one. I get it honestly lol But I still want to try it so no matter the size or the idea, I’m going out on a limb for at least 2 of my ideas.
- Write & Publish a Book
- I love reading and writing and getting lost in universes that play like movies in my mind. I want to explore that more. I may end up being a terrible writer or I may end up being an author that has a popular series. I want to try though. I want to see if people will enjoy my daydreams as much on paper as I do in my mind.
- Post a video on my Youtube channel.
- Seriously, I’ve had a channel started for like 6 years and have yet to post any videos. I have a couple saved in private but that doesn’t actually count so by the end of 2024. I will be posting at least one. If it’s not my thing, I’ll move on but I wanted to so I’m going to do it.
- Share this website with my family.
- As of writing this, there are only a few of my family members who I told about doing this. I grew up way faster than any should have to so sometimes sharing things with my family is really hard. I’ve always felt like sharing my thoughts/feelings would cause them stress and burden them. So, in order to not “be a burden”, I bottled everything up. I’ve gotten better throughout the years with help of therapy and experiences over the years but it’s still quite difficult for me. I think it would be cool to show certain family members my actual story and not just the creepily cheery cliff notes version.
- Blog Consistently. At least one entry a week.
- Obviously, this will go nowhere if I don’t write it and it will once again become a project that I have forgotten about or regret later down the line. I don’t want anymore regrets due to me not trying something or finishing what I start so this is my accountability goal to ensure that I do the damn thing. At least for a year. Once I turn 30, if this isn’t what I want to do, well I gave it a fair chance and it’s okay. Until then we are sticking to this!